Have Courage

Have Courage

Before you could drive a car or kiss properly, you wanted to be a certain person.  From ABC’s to times tables, you’ve wanted to build a castle the sea wouldn’t wash away. Dreams are how we grow and what we live for.  And in my heart of hearts, I believe that anything you can dream … Continue reading

Finding the Extraordinary

Finding the Extraordinary

There are certain essences of human life that we all understand.  Life cut down to the pit. Fearing the kind of internet presence I will have FOREVER, there are certain words I keep under my breast bone.  I can’t tell you the X-Rated things my roommate and I discussed giving up for Lent or all … Continue reading

What Do You Wish For?

What Do You Wish For?

What do you wish for when you blow out birthday candles?  What do you pray about when you get in bed at night? Me, I don’t make heavy wishes about love.  I don’t envision the white gown or my Dad giving me away.  I sense I might never do that whole thing so I don’t … Continue reading

Maybe the World is Black or White

Maybe the World is Black or White

I opened the window and climbed out onto the ledge. The cobblestone streets were empty.  No bustling bodies carrying plastic bags from Tesco.  No tourists with guidebooks splayed in front of them.  No cigarette smoke and baritone voices floating up from the cafes.  No trams clinking on their tracks, or singsongy Czech rising and falling … Continue reading

The Art of Seeing

The Art of Seeing

When I was a little girl, my eyes were flicking around at the breathing of the world. I never glanced at things, wondering if they were relevant.  Every cloud, every rock I saw, was like I was seeing it for the first time.  I sat on my family’s first rod iron fence hugged in by … Continue reading

On Miracles & Why I Love Writing

On Miracles & Why I Love Writing

There’s this movie from 1945 called The Lost Weekend starring Ray Milland.  It’s about an alcoholic writer, Don Birnam, who has writer’s block and after years of being sober, he crumbles and goes on a weekend bender in New York City. Don gets kicked out of bars and falls down stairs.  When his girlfriend cleans out … Continue reading

We Are All a Part of the Same Thing

We Are All a Part of the Same Thing

I never did like going to church.  I hope that doesn’t offend anybody – it’s just the truth.  I understand why church takes with people, it just never really took with me. When I was little, my parents would drag me to mass every Sunday morning.  They would burst in through my bedroom door, and … Continue reading

Your Life: One-Time Magic

Your Life: One-Time Magic

You’d learn a lot about a person (slash you’d be horrified) if you could get a copy of their Google search history.  My single girl server is something like: “Jon Hamm white pants,” “Costco insurance,” “I’m jealous of Lena Dunham,” and “How did David Foster Wallace kill himself?”  Re: the Lena Dunham thing, the way … Continue reading

On Fear

On Fear

What if a lifetime of fears could be collected and organized?  A-Z.  “Boogie man” to “going in for the first kiss.”  If this were possible, first I’d lay the fears out on the floor of my bedroom.  I’d wear a Breaking Bad-style Hazmat suit and I’d put the fears in chronological order.  I’d siphon them … Continue reading

I Hate Valentine’s Day

I Hate Valentine’s Day

I hate Valentine’s Day.  I hate it like I hate pap smears, daytime TV, and automated phone calls. I walked into Barnes & Noble to get a planner on New Year’s Day, and BAM!!  A Valentine’s Day table!!!  I wanted to puke all over the display.  Or maybe pull a PETA and throw a can … Continue reading